Thank the Lord for his goodness.

" And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good for those who are called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28 (ESV).
So much has happen since I last wrote. I've been accepted to North Central. I've gotten my license so thats a new step toward independence. By GodMs Grace IMm not in the same spiritual valley. I have started to grow again and that has only happen by God opening my eyes to see my sin and repenting so that has been a blessing. On another note I decided to run track after realizing the sin in my life and the issues of my heart such as the issue of being prideful over a gift that God gave me to be able to run and be decent, and my pride being hurrt because I did not become a captain. And now when I look at he sitiuation I realize that God knew if I had becaome a captain I would have just become more prideful and that would have been another issue. But I thank God for his goodness because he knew exactly what I needed. To humble myself to him and his purposes and

YAY I have my computer back!!

So a couple of days ago my computer contracted a virus:( it was not cool at all. But I took it to this computer shop and got it fixed.. That makes me happy but I found out that internet explorer is not a good browser.. So now I'm using safari and its working wonderfully.

While I'm waiting I will worship While I'm waiting I will not faint

So i know everyone will have a ton of wise advice for what I'm about to say but here goes. My title is from a song that comes from the fireproof soundtrack and it's a wonderful song, it's powerful, it describes where I'm at in my life. I'm waiting to go to college. I'm waiting for God to show me what will give him the most Glory. I'm waiting to be married if that's what God has planed for me. I'm waiting. I'm waiting for people to get their live together so they can get their own children and raise them. I'm praying and waiting for patience. I'm waiting to be a loving helper to my husband. I'm waiting but i know that I must seek the Lord in all my waiting and though it maybe hard but i will worship and trust in the Lord's faithfulness.

Lord I'm so thankul that you gracious

My birthday was this past Monday.. I turned 19 oh my gosh I'm old. My birthday was great!! I had the day off of school because my birthday and Martin Luther king day fell on the same day. So that was cool. For my birthday I went out t eat with my sister and it was wonderful. Then i visited with a friend for a while and then I picked up my great niece to watch her for a while after that i went home and slept half the day away. That evening my mom and i had an enjoyable time making a homemade yellow cake. then that night i rejoiced with joy because i was able to have another birthday and i thanked the lord for his unfailing grace. And i thought how good God was to me. On another note My dad did not call me and i was very sad about that. I was sorrowful yet rejoicing because i was able to rest in God's promises and the pslamist who said, "for my mother and father forsake me the lord will take me in." Ps 27:10 The love of the Lord is amazing.

As I was walking home I began to think... I looked at the snow on the cars and on the ground and

feeling down

So these last few days I have really been feeling down, Sad, Unworthy of grace (Which is true I don't deserve Grace apart from Jesus) My soul has been downcast. I am know that Jesus paid it all but my heart doesn't get. I'm grieving in my spirit. I have placed my worth in the approval of man and I know its wrong but my human nature wants so badly to get approval. I know scripture and I should be chasing after the approval of Jesus i don't want to be like the Pharisees but i am because i look for man's approval. LORD help your child to find peace in your Son Jesus Christ

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

Lord may my heart truly grow in my knowledge and understanding of you and may I trust you fully. Amen

The start of an old hobby

Today I started working out. It felt good to my body and my first instinct was to go hard and do everything. Then I figured that would not be wise. Even though I did not over do it my body still kind of hurt. Which was to be expected with the act of wroking out and doing something my body hasn't done this in a long time.. But man did it feel good to be active again. My main prayer is that my motives for working out and wanting to be healthy wouldn't be an idol or an obession. I can be active and it be christ glorifying. I just struggle with being so self consumed so then I started to think if I should be doing it. I believe that I an I just have to pray and fight this thing out so that my heart is change. I know that if my desire is to please the LORD Then he will work it out that in my heart and motives are pleasing to him. My hope is that God teaches me humility through all this and that I grow in my fear of the LORD daily.