Midterm Season in!! And out it goes!

This past week I had midterms!! Scary time but good. I got to put to the test all the stuff I've been learning from my school books hopefully I did well. I've been working and going to school and so since I've been doing both things one thing would be forgotten about because I still haven't gotten this whole time management thing down. So studying kind of got forgot about for a while. Midterms came and I realized I did not study as much as I wanted to. So I did a couple intense study nights before my midterm. I retained most of the information but I realized how blessed I was to only have on midterm because the philosophy I had is a bad one.

One of the homework assignments I really appreciate is Kingdom Experiments in Spiritual Life and Community where we could pick something to fast from and I picked two things to fast from and that is facebook and baking. I choose to fast from these two things because even though they are good they had become a distraction to me and the things I need to get done like homework. I would sit on facebook and procrastinate instead of do homework or I would bake instead of do homework. I still really like baking but since I've been fasting I've felt so much freedom.

Things I've learned from this homework assignment

• you can't run form problems
• God is the only on who will satisfy
• as humans we easily pervert wonderful gifts and make them gods
• time management is important for homework and fun
• Dealing with relational problems can be rewarding you just have to be willing to put time into them.

Thanks for reading my blog even though it is silly talk

Angel

Reflections of My past month in Spokane, Washington

I have been here in Spokane for a month now today and here are some of my thoughts.

The sky-line is beautiful. My classes are good I need to get caught up on homework. Already which for me is a bad sign I need to find my study style and timing in which I study best. So my reflection:

Its really dry in spokane compared to minneapolis.

People don't really water their grass.

Lots of my Professors like Piper and so do my classmates.

Lots of people like me which makes me happy.

Living in a house with 5 other girls is interesting.

I'm sinful and am not always kind

My allergies act up a lot

My asthma acts up a lot also

I got homesick often

There is an Acts 29 church out here which I really like its a young church meaning there is not a lot of older people there.

I like my roommate

She is nice she was a missionary kid in china

The housing area I live in consist of 35 other girls so it is kind of like a dorm which is nice.

There is a women here by the name of michelle that I really like she is 25 likes to rock climb, bolder, white water raft, run, camp and lots of other stuff I think she is awesome and that God placed her here to minister to me.

What I am learning:

I am prideful

I don't like to ask for help

I can be a loner

I have self pity parties sometimes

I procrastinate

I need to think outside of me

I need to rely more on God and less on myself

God is an amazing provider and Father

God's love endless

His mercy is new every morning

That I can walk by faith

That God is Faithful

That God is Love

That God is interested in me as His child

that I need to got to sleep earlier

That I need to do what I know is best for me school wise

Some other things I'm learning is that consistency is a good thing, I have a lot of convictions and have not put them into action. God has given me passions for urban ministry and I just don't know how to get started.

Things I hope to get out of my moody education

For my head knowledge to be in my heart and shown by my life.

Prayer request that I would be graceful and filled with grace for the people I live with

violence

I was reading the Chicago tribune and most of the stuff was about Violence on the south side of Chicago. One story was about a 17 year old boy being charged with the murder of his 5 year old cousin. The 17 year old did not shoot his little cousin he just brought the gun in the house and hide in his little cousins room. The 5 year old and his twin were sen to bed when the family heard a shot from the bedroom. The 5 year old's twin brother came out of the room saying his brother had been shot. I scrolled down to the comments and read almost all of them and for one thing people are cruel. First thing people do is insult parents and families and the community. And at this point I am angry as I write this because this sad event did take place in the black community and I feel like people should not make what they think is educated comments if they have not walked in someone else shoes. I'm sick of this high and mighty attitude that comes from people. Let us stop looking at everyone so negatively, pray for people that are different then us and be helpful in a Christ exalting way. we are no better then anyone else and we need to stop acting as though we are. Also another note people that live dangerous lives don't always come from families that don't care they just make poor decisions. Fatherless homes don't always create irresponsible,uneducated members of society.

Open house, Graduation and stress

Tomorrow is my last day as a southwest senior! I a verry excited and yet afraid because I don't know if I am going to pass on class which could mean that I will not graduate. The class is Ap Gov't. Part lf me says I won't pass but the other part of me says i'll be fine. Then cmes open house on saturday which I am not to worried about I know it will be a gun time and that God will send the people who are suppose to be there. Then sunday is graduation and that is the part that stesses me out. I am stressed because I am trying to figure out if I should invite my dad and I guess I am not really figuring it out I know that I am to honor him because he is my dad but I just don't want to invite him. I don't want to invite him because there is sitll a lot of pain in our relationship and this entire year he hasn't shown any intrest in what is going on in my life. And so I know what I have to do to be honoring to God my Father its just going to cause me some discomfort and thats the part I'm not looking forward to. "weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes in the morning" psalm 30:5b

Thank the Lord for his goodness.

" And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good for those who are called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28 (ESV).
So much has happen since I last wrote. I've been accepted to North Central. I've gotten my license so thats a new step toward independence. By GodMs Grace IMm not in the same spiritual valley. I have started to grow again and that has only happen by God opening my eyes to see my sin and repenting so that has been a blessing. On another note I decided to run track after realizing the sin in my life and the issues of my heart such as the issue of being prideful over a gift that God gave me to be able to run and be decent, and my pride being hurrt because I did not become a captain. And now when I look at he sitiuation I realize that God knew if I had becaome a captain I would have just become more prideful and that would have been another issue. But I thank God for his goodness because he knew exactly what I needed. To humble myself to him and his purposes and

YAY I have my computer back!!

So a couple of days ago my computer contracted a virus:( it was not cool at all. But I took it to this computer shop and got it fixed.. That makes me happy but I found out that internet explorer is not a good browser.. So now I'm using safari and its working wonderfully.

While I'm waiting I will worship While I'm waiting I will not faint

So i know everyone will have a ton of wise advice for what I'm about to say but here goes. My title is from a song that comes from the fireproof soundtrack and it's a wonderful song, it's powerful, it describes where I'm at in my life. I'm waiting to go to college. I'm waiting for God to show me what will give him the most Glory. I'm waiting to be married if that's what God has planed for me. I'm waiting. I'm waiting for people to get their live together so they can get their own children and raise them. I'm praying and waiting for patience. I'm waiting to be a loving helper to my husband. I'm waiting but i know that I must seek the Lord in all my waiting and though it maybe hard but i will worship and trust in the Lord's faithfulness.

Lord I'm so thankul that you gracious

My birthday was this past Monday.. I turned 19 oh my gosh I'm old. My birthday was great!! I had the day off of school because my birthday and Martin Luther king day fell on the same day. So that was cool. For my birthday I went out t eat with my sister and it was wonderful. Then i visited with a friend for a while and then I picked up my great niece to watch her for a while after that i went home and slept half the day away. That evening my mom and i had an enjoyable time making a homemade yellow cake. then that night i rejoiced with joy because i was able to have another birthday and i thanked the lord for his unfailing grace. And i thought how good God was to me. On another note My dad did not call me and i was very sad about that. I was sorrowful yet rejoicing because i was able to rest in God's promises and the pslamist who said, "for my mother and father forsake me the lord will take me in." Ps 27:10 The love of the Lord is amazing.