As I was walking home I began to think... I looked at the snow on the cars and on the ground and

feeling down

So these last few days I have really been feeling down, Sad, Unworthy of grace (Which is true I don't deserve Grace apart from Jesus) My soul has been downcast. I am know that Jesus paid it all but my heart doesn't get. I'm grieving in my spirit. I have placed my worth in the approval of man and I know its wrong but my human nature wants so badly to get approval. I know scripture and I should be chasing after the approval of Jesus i don't want to be like the Pharisees but i am because i look for man's approval. LORD help your child to find peace in your Son Jesus Christ

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

Lord may my heart truly grow in my knowledge and understanding of you and may I trust you fully. Amen

The start of an old hobby

Today I started working out. It felt good to my body and my first instinct was to go hard and do everything. Then I figured that would not be wise. Even though I did not over do it my body still kind of hurt. Which was to be expected with the act of wroking out and doing something my body hasn't done this in a long time.. But man did it feel good to be active again. My main prayer is that my motives for working out and wanting to be healthy wouldn't be an idol or an obession. I can be active and it be christ glorifying. I just struggle with being so self consumed so then I started to think if I should be doing it. I believe that I an I just have to pray and fight this thing out so that my heart is change. I know that if my desire is to please the LORD Then he will work it out that in my heart and motives are pleasing to him. My hope is that God teaches me humility through all this and that I grow in my fear of the LORD daily.

Its been a while since the last time I posted anything

What a blessing Thanksgiving was for my family and I. I was able to see my great niece from Florida! That was great! School has school has started back but its going good I just have to keep fighting.. Since I went back to work it s been good I am just thankful I still have a job:) Some recent things that have happened. I recived my ACT scores I was happy with them. One of my sister's went to treatment which is a blessing, I had to get rid of one of my beds which was a buumer. Christmas is coming up and I am happy about the reason for the season which is Jesus. I am hooping to do some traveling over break.. I am not sureif I am going to though. So that should be interesting. On two months ago my family was blessed with the birth of my first great nephew!! It is so interesting to watch his little body grow and a blessing.