As I was walking home I began to think... I looked at the snow on the cars and on the ground and

feeling down

So these last few days I have really been feeling down, Sad, Unworthy of grace (Which is true I don't deserve Grace apart from Jesus) My soul has been downcast. I am know that Jesus paid it all but my heart doesn't get. I'm grieving in my spirit. I have placed my worth in the approval of man and I know its wrong but my human nature wants so badly to get approval. I know scripture and I should be chasing after the approval of Jesus i don't want to be like the Pharisees but i am because i look for man's approval. LORD help your child to find peace in your Son Jesus Christ

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

Lord may my heart truly grow in my knowledge and understanding of you and may I trust you fully. Amen

The start of an old hobby

Today I started working out. It felt good to my body and my first instinct was to go hard and do everything. Then I figured that would not be wise. Even though I did not over do it my body still kind of hurt. Which was to be expected with the act of wroking out and doing something my body hasn't done this in a long time.. But man did it feel good to be active again. My main prayer is that my motives for working out and wanting to be healthy wouldn't be an idol or an obession. I can be active and it be christ glorifying. I just struggle with being so self consumed so then I started to think if I should be doing it. I believe that I an I just have to pray and fight this thing out so that my heart is change. I know that if my desire is to please the LORD Then he will work it out that in my heart and motives are pleasing to him. My hope is that God teaches me humility through all this and that I grow in my fear of the LORD daily.

Its been a while since the last time I posted anything

What a blessing Thanksgiving was for my family and I. I was able to see my great niece from Florida! That was great! School has school has started back but its going good I just have to keep fighting.. Since I went back to work it s been good I am just thankful I still have a job:) Some recent things that have happened. I recived my ACT scores I was happy with them. One of my sister's went to treatment which is a blessing, I had to get rid of one of my beds which was a buumer. Christmas is coming up and I am happy about the reason for the season which is Jesus. I am hooping to do some traveling over break.. I am not sureif I am going to though. So that should be interesting. On two months ago my family was blessed with the birth of my first great nephew!! It is so interesting to watch his little body grow and a blessing.

constitution paper

This is a paper I wrote for Ap Government

The constitution is a wonderful document, and should not be changed. The history and amendments all had their time and place and happen for a reason. The reason is because we are sinful and fallen people and because we place relationships before God. God allows this all to happen to bring us back to him. Therefore, to show that Jesus’ life, death, and resurrection was not in vain. The constitution gives everyone their rights, is still in use today, and allows room for change.
The constitution through its amendments gives everyone their rights. The road to getting these rights might have been hard and long but that was also to point us to the cross. If everyone had gotten their rights, right away no one would see their need for a savior. God allows struggle to show us in our weakness our need for him.

Apple Orchard, and homework

Today my mom was Gracious enough to take my niece and nephew to a local apple orchard. Where they picked apples,went on a hay ride and got the chance to bring home some delicious apples. I very badly wished I could have gone with but with, the counsel of my mom I was advised to stay home. As you know I have been out of school for a week so I have tons of homework from my absent. With God's help and and some pain meds I hope to get caught up on homework I need to stay focuses and try to work hard.
God has sure been Gracious in giving me creativity in how to do things. I have myself propped up to do homework and be on the computer. Praising God for his goodness and mercy that the accident was not much worse. Thank you all for your concern and your prayers. On a note on school I was in physics and algebra 2 because of difficulty and a long absent from school I dropped them. I am hopefully to do well in school for the remainder of the school year.

Ciropractic treatment!!

This morning I went to the chiropractor and was adjusted it felt very good. Only problem is that the appointment took so long!! It took at least an hour! Well I had to finish up all the paper work and after that the doctor went over my x-rays and the affect the accident had on my nervous system. My right brain way slightly damage and I experienced whiplash which caused the slight brain damage. After my adjustment I was put on this traction table which rolls up and down my body and these things called EMS which sends shocks to my muscles and I lay on ice during all of this. The chiropractor we go to is amazing and I am so thank that God gives us people that are interested in Medicine and how the body works. Thanks for all that are praying for us. God Has been Gracious and Good through it all.

New on the sense!!

I am new to blogging world but I think I will enjoy this :) Hope you enjoy feasting your eyes on my wonderful words. LOL

Car Aciddent

On the 17th of september my mom and I were on our way to target on Hiawahta at the intersection of hiawatha & 26th at the arrow waiting for it to change. The all of a sudden we were rear-ended by a semi truck. Though it was a mild bump it still affectrd my mom and I very badly. I have suffered sever levels of pain ove these last couple of days. My level of activity has been limited meaning I haven't been able to go to school because its to hard to sit for long periods of time, carrying my books is hard and many other sorts of things is hard. All in all God has been good t us allowing us to go to a great ciropractor that also handles finding us a good laywer while helpsing us heal. God has been Good becase he did not allow the car to be to baldy damaged and becasue our injuries are kind of minor.